Saan

Chapter 83

"Ash."

Obviously because of the shock, Gu Zuo was forced into the opponent's arms.

He clearly knows that the person standing in front of him may threaten his own life.

Even so, Gu Zuo murmured the other party's name, just like before, with a little smile, a little exclamation, and a little joy at the perfect deacon.

That's right, that feeling of fear is mixed with happiness and joy, because in the past, Gu Zuo, for a few moments, thought that such a perfect and unrepeatable Yaxiu would belong to him.

So even after knowing the other party's betrayal, the moment he saw Ashura, he would approach without resistance and without trust.

"Yes, sir."

This answer, as if in a lifetime, once again brought the relationship between Gu Zuo and Yaxiu closer.

"Long time no see, young master, you seem a little haggard." Yaxiu's slender fingers brushed over Gu Zuo's bangs, and the familiar cold fingertips seemed to touch Gu Zuo's forehead.

It's cool, it won't be so hot that people want to run away, the temperature is just right, and Gu Zuo sighed.

"Yeah, it's because of you." Gu Zuo took the lead to take a step back and left Yaxiu's embrace.

This is probably Gu Zuo's usual actions, always the first to create distance after the two get close.

"..." At that moment, Yaxiu didn't refute, he looked like a child who couldn't get a toy with his mouth curled up.Those two thin and red lips said cruel words in the next moment, "Because I haven't done anything yet, is it the relationship that keeps you alive?"

"Zozuo, where are you?"

"Hey?"

The voices of Yimulian and Hongye came from the water in the corridor. Obviously they realized that Gu Zuojiu would not return, and gradually developed a feeling of uneasiness, and came out to look for Gu Zuo.

"I...", Gu Zuo opened his mouth, but before he could say the first syllable of what he wanted to say, there was darkness in front of him, and everything in the room was extinguished.

He felt himself being pulled over, turned over, and was grabbed by the wrist by a strong hand, as if he was completely suppressed against the wall.

In the darkness, did Yaxiu lower his head?Is the breath on the forehead the breath of Ashura?

Just like that, Gu Zuo was grabbed by Yaxiu's wrist, unable to move.He didn't resist, nor did he make a sound.

The conversation between Hongye and Yimulian, the sound of footsteps seems to have passed the door of this room, and it seems to be moving away in two directions of the corridor.Gu Zuo knew that the room he and Yaxiu stayed in... No, the room they were in had already been alienated by Yaxiu.This is another time that Yimulian can't see-the time like a black hole.

"Why, are you crying?" Yaxiu loosened one of Gu Zuo's wrists, and he saw the blue pupil shining in the dark.

It is so clear that it seems that any lines in the pupils can be seen clearly, it attracts people's attention like a gem, and it is so dazzling that it seems that it can no longer look away.

"I didn't cry, Yaxiu, it was just tears, tears that are meaningless to you." Although Gu Zuo didn't take any action, but he tried his best to speak plainly. counterattack.

This space fell into a suffocating silence, and it was completely dark.

Yaxiu could see that there were crystal clear tears hidden in the blue pupil like glass.

But his blond hair and shining purple pupils are still as beautiful as an angel in Gu Zuo's eyes.

Do they recall the harmonious past by coincidence, or do they both understand the meaning of being different from each other?

In the sudden silence, the blended breathing seemed to ease the heavy atmosphere.

"Axiu", but Gu Zuo grabbed his cold fingers and pulled him towards him, as if he had lied desperately that he was his deacon, "I miss you."

Even if he couldn't find out the secrets and thoughts in Yaxiu's heart, Gu Zuo still gained redemption again and again from his careful and considerate treatment.

When he was first abandoned by his mother, Gu Zuo knew that the darkest place in the world is the bottom of a person's heart.

So he always hid himself very deeply, and it was only when Ashura made him realize that he was just unwilling to show his feelings, and he was just longing for a serious relationship and a serious treatment.

Once, Yaxiu made him think that he had found a deacon who would never be lost, a family member, a person who lost his memory... an existence that he could make up memories at will.

So it was Gu Zuo who was getting deeper and deeper, and now the person who became a little unwilling to let go - was himself.

A soft "I miss you", like a crisp bone crack, woke up the somewhat dazed Ashura, he tightened his hands, his eyes were already familiar with the darkness, and he also had a panoramic view of the pain and forbearance that flashed across Gu Zuo's face .

Ashius felt as if he was angry with something, resented something, and escaped, but he didn't know what he had forgotten.

I just feel that there is an uncontrollable mood in my heart that is almost gushing out.

"Do you really, really think so?" The sneer sounded soft as if it was about to disappear, Yaxiu moved closer to Gu Zuo, their distance was as close as in the past, as if they could kiss each other's lips at any time Same.

"But why do I feel that you want to open this door and leave me at any time?" He grasped Gu Zuo's wrist tightly, almost crushing that slender skeleton, and his words carried such a crushing anger , disrupting the silence at this moment.

"Do you really think so?" Gu Zuo wanted to laugh instead, the more he wanted to laugh, the sadder he felt—an inexplicable emotion welled up in his heart.That's right, he was the one who made a mistake first, and innocently lied to Ashura that he was his deacon, but from then on, it was Ash himself who perfectly interpreted the identity of deacon...

And later on, he was so good at acting that he didn't even know that Infernal Affairs had been staged quietly...it was also Yaxiu himself.

"..." Lost his voice for a moment, Yaxiu couldn't answer Gu Zuo's rhetorical question.Just know that there is a voice in his heart echoing, 'No, I want you to stay with me. '

I really want to tell Gu Zuo these directly, no matter what, I want to tell him my heart, but on the other side, Yaxiu knows that he can't, so he hoarse and lowered his hoarseness to the lowest, "No, I don't need it. you."

Yes, that's right?

Ash said again, "I don't need you by my side," he said again with a firm tone.He doesn't want to be with Gu Zuo, doesn't want to be with him.

At this moment, Yimulian and Hongye's voices sounded outside the door.

"Don't you think it's been a little long since Zuo Zuo left?"

"Yeah, did you mean you went out? How could I not notice?"

"It's not because you're being lazy, is it?"

"Hey! How is it possible?! Never been so serious, okay?"

"Maybe it's because of those cookies?"

"Stop it! Thinking of this smell makes me want to throw up again!!"

"again?!"

"Huh?! I didn't say that word! You heard it wrong~"

The words of Hongye and Yimulian passed through the crack of the door, like a gust of wind, poured into the ears of Gu Zuo and Yaxiu.

Gu Zuo turned around and turned the doorknob, as if he wanted to leave.The step he took was like a wooden stake, hitting the ground heavily, as if something had cracked.

A certain wall in my heart... collapsed.

It was long and heavy, as if an eternity passed in an instant, and the sound of slowly leaving footsteps was not heard, Yaxiu looked up, and Gu Zuo's eyes looking back were anxiously together again.

At that moment, Yaxiu, who was stubborn and unwilling to reconcile, looked like a child who was having trouble in Gu Zuo's eyes.It has nothing to do with height or appearance, Yaxiu's eyes are full of loss and disappointment, as if abandoned, staring at him stubbornly but refusing to say a word.

It seems that in someone's memory, there was such a beautiful boy who cried uncontrollably, feeling very sad and lonely for a long time.

It was as if he had been injured to the point that even his bones were shattered... Those long and long memories were all left in a certain angle in his heart.Never disappeared, countless times, countless times calling, until it turned into black despair.

Whose memories are swarming towards him at this moment.

Is it Ash's?

In a trance, Gu Zuo felt that he had fallen into the blue cold sea, just like in order to obtain different pupils.He tried his best to open his eyes, yes, he was indeed still in the vast ocean, and even the tiny golden creatures around him could see clearly.The water wave gently swelled and slid along the ear pinna to the back.

Distorted voice, murmuring indistinctly.Through the sea water, Gu Zuo didn't panic, and opened his eyes calmly.At the same time, a transparent liquid that was incompatible with sea and blue water fell drop by drop from the corner of his eyes, and then rounded into beads, which broke apart one by one and disappeared instantly.

He seemed to remember something.

Gu Zuo opened his eyes again, there was no sea water, no hallucinations, he was still standing in that room, opposite him was still the dazzling Ash who couldn't look directly at him, and there were walls full of marks all over his body and black light and shadow looking around.

"I see, Ash."

Gu Zuo sighed, and walked in front of Yaxiu again. The height difference between him and Yaxiu was just enough for his head to rest on Yaxiu's chest.As close as a lover, Gu Zuo put his arms around Yaxiu's waist. It was probably the first time he was so intimate with Yaxiu, and it might also be the last time.

"It's here, you end me, let all this reincarnation, end it. You and I will not be so entangled in one world after another."

The author has something to say:

That's right, I updated it, that's right, you know that I'm going to the end after reading the last sentence, right?

I have been sick since I came back from the trip, and I am finally ready to work hard again, and I have finished this article.