Saan

Chapter 20

Deep in Liu's memory, there is such a flying little face, holding a volume of books in his hand, listening to the master sitting on it reading the classics of Confucianism and Confucianism with a half understanding, followed by the master in a daze. Heads up.At this time, Liu was rescued by his father's brother, who was loyal to Jinlan, and lived in Gu's residence in Shu.

This was the first time Liu left the Forbidden City, and when he felt the hardship of being under the fence, he was healed by this little face at the same time.

Mr. Liu loves to smile at the young man who shakes his head like a master, and always thinks the young man is innocent and cute.

The boy always pouted, and then pulled the corner of his clothes, "Brother Liu~"

Yes, he is his elder brother Liu, and he is his little assistant.

It was like playing a childhood game between brothers, for four years they were close and shared everything.We ate together, skipped classes together, and rebelled together. By the high wall of the mansion, Liu always stretched out his hands and said to the people above, "Xiao Zuo, jump down, and I will catch you."

At that time, Liu didn't know that this title would accompany him for the rest of his life.

At that time, Liu didn't know that all his prudence and step-by-step at this time were just a warm-hearted foreshadowing for him to let go of all his scheming in the empire on which the sun never sets more than ten years later.

The more perfect the past, the more warm memories there are, the fatal blow will be given when the truth comes.

During the process, it was as warm as spring, and after the process, it was painful.More than ten years ago, the sunshine in Shu Township was warm, exaggerating the love that never started in the empire on which the sun never sets.

After many years, Liu still kept the room where Gu Zuo used to live. He sat on the already yellowed sheets, thinking wearily when he would meet the real Gu Zuo.Thinking about it carefully, it was probably the day when he first arrived in England.

At that time, Gu Zuo was wearing a white knit brocade gown from the Qing Dynasty, with a multicolored exquisite belt around his waist and a hem that reached to his feet, without any other excessive decorations.It is so incompatible with the surrounding environment.This made Liu couldn't help thinking, when he was standing at the pier with a merchant ship arriving in England with a few attendants, was he also so dazed at that time?It should be. Many things can be forgotten after a long time.

It's as if Liu has always remembered that he, who hadn't grown up more than ten years ago, stood in the backyard of Gu's mansion, looking at everything blankly, and even forgot to think about the way forward.And now, the child who has been held in the palm of the Gu family since he was a child, stands where he stood a few years ago, looking at Britain, which seems to be another world compared with the Qing Dynasty, and doesn't even know the way forward.

A little nostalgic, a little sad, and more worried about this underage child, can Xiao Zuo get used to the food here?Will Xiao Zuo become a stranger to him?Will Xiao Zuo discover his identity?Will Xiao Zuo... It was only then that Liu realized that the brother game did not pass as he thought, but it really stayed in his heart.

Back then when Gu Zuo came, he was at a loss, but now Liu looked at the frost in this room, and he didn't have any expectations for the future in his heart.Ever since Gu Zuo disappeared, every time he calmed down, he would have this kind of emotion that he once despised.It's just that such feelings are emerging more and more, and I will no longer feel panicked by ignorance.

Outside the window, the cold wind of the Empire on which the sun never sets roars.In the house, a frost as cold as a century has been frozen in my heart.Only now can Liu be able to tell himself with certainty that when he was at the pier, he saw himself in that Gu Zuo back then, so he looked at Gu Zuo differently from the very beginning.

So coupled with that clear past, from the very beginning, Liu let go of Gu Zuo's perfect disguise.It's not that he was confiding in Gu Zuo, but he just underestimated him and thought he was the little boy who was as bright as the sun in his memory at the beginning.So much so that when he discovered Gu Zuo's identity, he had paradoxical doubts about who the person he liked was.At that time, I couldn't help myself in pain.Turn all sorrows into inner condemnation in the dark night, and generate helplessness in silence.

Gu Zuo, who came to the Empire on which the sun never sets, was too quiet, which surprised Liu a little.He suddenly discovered that this young man, who was still considered a nobleman's son even though his family was in decline, was too patient.This kind of patience is different from that of Liu at that time. At the beginning, Liu knew that the better the future, the harder he must work now.

When he first came to England, Liu endured and endured for such a young and naive goal.There were quite a few people who came on the same boat with him, most of them had ideals such as making the country prosperous and strong. They were young and vigorous, and their faces full of ambition could not conceal their true emotions.In less than a year, there were only a few people who came with Liu at the beginning, and two years later, even though Liu went around in the Green Gang, there was no news of those few people.

Gu Zuo's patience is different, it seems to be the kind of bottom line that never has a bottom line.Liu thought that Gu Zuo had grown up, and Liu thought that Gu Zuo was sad because he lost his parents.Liu was too confident, so at the very beginning, Liu had already lost in the face of the heavily disguised Gu Zuo.

Gu Zuo, who are you?what's your name?

At that time, even though he told himself that the news was absolutely false, Liu would not deceive himself, he knew that his source of news was true.So he sent people back to the country and carefully adjusted everything.

There is no such person in the Gu family. There is only one daughter in the Gu family, named Gu Qing. Her father and the Liu family were brothers with different surnames many years ago, and betrothed her daughter to a son of the Liu family, thus the two became in-laws.The Liu family was arrested and imprisoned more than ten years ago on suspicion of misappropriating huge sums of money for disaster relief. The whereabouts of the youngest son are unknown.Gu Qing loved reading since she was a child, and she has a gentle and elegant temperament.In the 26th year of Guangxu, he died in a fire. The cause of his death was that a maid of the Gu family accidentally knocked over the candlestick in the study room in the evening. Because of Gu’s love and tranquility, the house was relatively remote and there were only a few maids. The fire burned for half an hour before being discovered. And put it out, but Gu Qing was trapped and died. '

Liu read the letter countless times back and forth, clenched his palms a little bit, and finally threw the letter into the bonfire.

This was the first time Liu realized that the gentle Gu Zuo in front of him was not the boy in his memory at all.

So who do you remember?Liu didn't understand, what did Gu Zuo he hide from him?What did I ignore?

Liu told himself silently in his heart, as long as Xiao Zuo is willing to say, as long as Xiao Zuo tells everything, he doesn't care about anything, he doesn't care about anything... As long as Gu Zuo can tell him everything, Liu began to wait patiently.It's just that sometimes, even the proud patience will be slowly ground to ashes.

Liu asked Barudo to put more chili peppers in Gu Zuo's curry. He used this method to remind Gu Zuo that the Gu family has a century-old foundation in Sichuan. How could the real Gu Zuo not eat chili peppers?But Xiao Zuo still didn't say anything.

Liu often burns incense to Gu Zuo, because he finds that Gu Zuo always sleeps too lightly and wakes up at the slightest sound.At first Liu thought that Gu Zuo could not forget the death of his uncle and aunt.It's just that lurking in the dark, you can always find Gu Zuo getting up to put out the incense, and pretending to have burned it out.

Xiao Zuo just forgot for a while, didn't he?Uneasiness spread in his heart little by little, Liu restrained himself, and silently suppressed the panic in his heart.No, I just forgot it for a while, I must have just forgotten it for a while, that's all.

Back then, Gu Zuo used to learn martial arts with Liu in Gu's mansion. Although he left some wounds that could not heal, he could still dance swords and guns in a decent manner.

Now Xiao Zuo's body not only disappears the old scars, but also his behavior and habits can be changed, but even his body can become a mother? ...Liu couldn't bring himself not to doubt.

Liu always remembered the last night he and Gu Zuo were together, Gu Zuo stood in front of him, but he didn't know what Gu Zuo was thinking.Liu's heart was empty, and the fear that he thought he had lost long ago spread in his heart, but he could no longer find any reason or excuse to deceive himself.

Even if Gu Zuo is here now...

Even now that Gu Zuo is right in front of her...

Even though it's just him and Gu Zuo here now...

Liu still had a premonition that this familiar yet unfamiliar boy in front of him could never be completely his own.

The vortex generated in the Shire mansion did not escape Sebastian's eyes, and he knew that he was no match for that force, "Liu and Gu Zuo are still inside, young master, what are you going to do?" Sebastian Saying this, his tone sounded relaxed, but he frowned with a serious expression on his face.

Charles didn't think for a long time, he said seriously, "Go and have a look."

Sebastian gave him a serious look, and after confirming that Ciel was not making a fuss, he nodded and extended his hand.His fingers are slender and strong, which is the treatment that countless women dream of getting. The sun shines on his fingers, making them as fat and smooth as jade.Ciel didn't think much about it, he just felt that the people in front of him could always make him very at ease, he naturally stretched out his hand and put his hand in Sebas's palm as in the past.

Sebas gently folded his palms together and fully grasped Ciel's hand.Shire's hands were very slender, like a human being, as if they would break anytime.But Sebastian knows that Ciel is not such a fragile person, and sometimes he is so stubborn that it makes people headache.But it was this kind of Shire that made him obsessed, and Shire at this moment was everything to him.

"So, it doesn't matter, no matter what danger is ahead, no matter how powerful the enemy is, as long as you know that you are watching me, and only watching me." Sebas put his other hand on Ciel's face, before he spoke Before complaining, she wrapped her arms around his waist and jumped forward.

At that time, only Liu and the blue cat were left in the room, but Liu's expression seemed to be run over from the edge of life and death, and the blue cat's face was as dead as dust.

Shire chose not to ask anything, and Liu never came to Shire's mansion again.Sometimes, both Shire and Sebastian would wonder if that boy was just a dream. They had tried their best to find that boy, but there was still no result.

The Shanghai Youth Gang rose rapidly, and Liu's power rapidly expanded, so he went to many places, like to see the scenery, like to do business, only Blue Cat knew that he was looking for someone.

The appearance of the young Min makes Liu's emotions seem to have a sustenance. This is a young man who looks a lot like Gu Zuo.Countless times of remorse, countless times of remorse, and countless times of self-blame, when they saw Min, they all stopped.

There is already a huge hole in Liu's heart, that is, no amount of gold, silver, jewels or power can fill the loneliness.That Gu Zuo who didn't belong to this world broke everything about Liu, and Liu wanted to prove that even so he could go on.In fact, Liu did it. He did it better than anyone else. He climbed to a position where countless people were ruined, and he wore silk and satin that countless people could not even dream of wearing.

But the more Liu got, the more he realized that for ordinary people, he could no longer have the happiness that is within easy reach.Standing at a very high place, the feelings that were originally dismissive have become a luxury.

"Xiao Zuo, Xiao Zuo, don't..." On countless nights, Liu hugged Min who had fallen asleep, recalling that night many years ago under the moonlight.If at that time, he had directly told Xiao Zuo his feelings, would the result have been different?Could it be that he was looking back on the past in the silent night?

No one can answer all these, Liu Ai stroked Min's hair, and whispered softly, "Xiao Zuo, come back quickly."

Xiao Zuo, I can give you whatever you want now.

Xiao Zuo, this boy is very similar to you, are you jealous?

Xiao Zuo, I know he is not you, how are you doing now?

It's a pity that Min isn't quite like him after all.Min is not as docile as Gu Zuo, and has always been self-righteous in getting involved in Liu's business.Although Liu knew from the beginning that Min was an undercover agent, he still endured it.

Liu has been patient, has been looking forward to.Blue Cat doesn't know that what Liu expects is that this boy who looks very much like Gu Zuo will show a gentle and peaceful smile similar to Gu Zuo at a certain moment, even if in fact there is only a slight resemblance.

Liu has been patient, because he will never forget it in his heart. In the past, it was because of his reckless loss of patience that the boy he killed disappeared from sight in the vast crowd.He kept thinking, if he had been patient and waited a little longer, would Xiao Zuo tell him the truth.

The longer the time passed, the more Liu understood that it was impossible. In fact, many things were doomed to Xiao Zuo's disappearance.He began to see Min less and less, thinking that one day Min would die by his hands.It's just that the blue cat took the lead and let go of the weapon. What a ridiculous reason.Liu was still angry, because even the face that resembled Gu Zuo disappeared from then on.

In fact, Liu has lost many people. There are concubines who were once favored by thousands of people, loyal subordinates who vowed to die, and rare opponents.But no matter who you lose, it is not as painful as losing Gu Zuo, even the blue cat who is the closest to Liu in the eyes of everyone.

When the blue cat died, those beautiful eyes were no longer the usual indifference. She knew that she was about to die, so she stubbornly pulled Liu who wanted to find a doctor, and refused to let him go.It was the first time Blue Cat was so stubborn, so Liu sat beside her.

"My lord," her voice choked with sobs, "My lord..."

Blue Cat is not the first woman who has feelings for him, but she is the first person who has feelings for him but can always stay by his side.Blue Cat knows that the meaning of his existence is not to cover up his martial arts for this seemingly powerless man, but because...only he is the one around Liu who remembers Gu Zuo.

It doesn't matter whether the blue cat is good at martial arts, beautiful, or affectionate towards Liu.As long as she knows about Gu Zuo, and knows that there was an existence beside Liu that others don't know about, that's fine; as long as her memory can prove that there was a weak young man like water, that's enough; It is the meaning of the blue cat's survival.

Liu didn't want the blue cat to die, but she still died, just confirming that sentence, there are no living people under the devil.After the blue cat died, there was a contented smile on its stiff and beautiful face. Liu hadn't seen such a smile on the blue cat for many years. In fact, it wasn't that Liu had never seen it before, but that there was never blue in Liu's eyes. cat.He has known Blue Cat longer than he had known Gu Zuo in that false memory, but unfortunately, he chose to cut off many things when he knew the entangled relationship between himself and Blue Cat.

Liu is too shrewd, he knows how to make the blue cat die, and knows how to control the blue cat well.Therefore, even if the blue cat died, he was only a little regretful and sad.It's a pity that no one will accompany him on the journey, and it's sad that he even lost the last person who missed Gu Zuo.

Sebastian had already noticed Liu's quiet power, but he didn't know the reason.Sebastian always believed that being as smart as Liu would not put a person in his heart. He always thought that Liu's love for Gu Zuo was far less than his interest.

Sebas guessed wrong, but he didn't lose. The reason why demons are called demons is because they are strong enough.

I don't know if it's because he misses Gu Zuo, or it's a pity that Liu is a talent, and Ciel didn't let Sebastian kill him.

Liu left the Empire on which the sun never sets, but he is still the leader of the Shanghai Youth Gang, but he has moved to another stronghold.

Many years have passed, and Liu still maintains the habit of traveling, which makes the members of the Green Gang always shout too much, because Liu always goes to places that no one can find. In fact, for Liu, searching has long become a subconscious habit. .

From the north of the Yangtze River to the south of the Yangtze River, from outside the Great Wall to the Central Plains, the great mountains and rivers, the beautiful scenery on a good day, are just a fleeting moment.The young man appeared and then disappeared, and everything was gone, but his figure was deeply engraved in Liu's heart, leaving an indelible impression.

The author has something to say:

TAT looks so cruel... I'm sorry Liu!

Fruit basket? !